AngelaJossy's Blog

Jul. 16, 2010 at 10:32am

There is no room in my closet unless we can share clothes

Unlike most women, when it comes to love I'd actually prefer a guy who has very little on his plate right now. He could even be unemployed. Sure, I like money like everyone else and Lord knows I'm in need of more of it but I'm not looking for a Sugar Daddy. (My apologies to all the Sugar Daddy's out there reading this whose hearts I have just broken.)

I feel like with my chosen lifestyle the only chance I have at love is if the guy was totally into what I'm doing and emotionally invested in it. He would have to be partners with me in my endeavors. Otherwise he would be like a forlorn pet while I'm busy and distracted with my mission du jour. Or what would be an even worse outcome is I could get swept up in his charisma, get all distracted and lose myself. This is why love is so dangerous. It can change your perspective, make you weaker instead of stronger, it can make you say and do stupid things .. its messy business.

So for now (and for the last 5 years) I've been content to be clearheaded and single without temptation to defer to someone else in solvable predicaments, rely on someone for emotional support, seek validation for my ideas, opinions, creations, intentions and
etc. or to rely on someone else for financial support.

I simply can not see myself with a normal guy with a 9 to 5 job. I can't see that guy being able to relate to how I do things. I can't see myself being able to smile and nod and hear about his day when I've been designing a circus tent out of soccer shirt material and trying to negotiate a barter deal with a juggler while simultaneously synchronizing watches with our documentary film crew and talking to the press about media sponsorship.

He would think my life was frivolous (and non-profitable) and I would think his was boring as hell.

Ultimately I'm still not sure what my perfect life would look like. I feel like I'm pretty close to it now except for the whole not having money to buy food and pay bills part. It would be nice to have my own "person" but as explained above, this would be a very unique guy who I'm not sure exists beyond my imagination.

Someone recently told me, "There's no one like you Angie." I think he might be right.

comments [6]  |  posted under compadibility, life, lifestyle, love, romance, summer, Tacoma


by Erik on 7/17/2010 @ 10:56pm
Ultimately I'm still not sure what my perfect life would look like.

Suggestion No. 1:

by Erik on 7/20/2010 @ 11:06am
I simply can not see myself with a normal guy with a 9 to 5 job.

RR Anderson has heard your request and has answered!

by JesseHillFan on 7/20/2010 @ 12:53pm
I agree the Traveler and Angie would make a perfect couple.
Ah look at them holding hands in RR's drawing.

by AngelaJossy on 7/20/2010 @ 8:30pm
On second thought, maybe my boyfriend could be a pilot and just be gone most of the time. That also works.

by JesseHillFan on 7/20/2010 @ 9:02pm
Ooh my dad was a military Pilot.He's gone though (passed away in 2004-sad).
Good choice Angela.

by Erik on 7/21/2010 @ 4:09pm
Good point Angela. However, does your (imaginary) boyfriend have his own political ads: